feeling so pathetic and dont know what i would be like if without you
it is u that i want to teach in US
even tho i know i'm far from qualified
just like a fool working hard (but far from enough) without any direction
trying so hard to catch up with u
and without realizing it
just dont know who i am and what i want
maybe 7 yrs is good enough for me
maybe i dont want to teach Mandarin at all
maybe i dont want to keep running after u all the time
it just takes me too much
not the time or money but my dignity
maybe it's time
