seem to be an irony to my gloomy feeling...just like the awesome weather recently we have here in Vancouver...a beach weather...a weather that perfectly allows people go out for fun and natures and companionship...yet i can find no one to share with...how pathetic...
trying to cheer myself up by changing the colorful background...just as trying to appreciate the fantastic weather so that i may be able to feel refreshed...
seem that never in my life do i hate the nice weather so much more than ever...the nice weather not only contradicts with my emotional gloominess but also seems to laugh at my current life stagnation...which is something i dare not to face with...
thinking of the classic Japanese drama Long Vacation, played by Kimura Takuya...and wonder how long my vacation would be before my dawn appears on me...a question that i have no answer so far...
and u...knowing my fragility so well...give me no comforting words...not even one word...
go away the god damn melancholy and depression!!!!!!!how long you wanna occupy my mind......
